My Lord:
Pick anything you like, place it on your plate and this will be the way. The song that will remain the same for me. That liberty they sell as one serves corruption, serves vice, serves the flesh, it is a lie. There is no peace, no rest, no safety in sin. There is no liberty as one serves corruption, it is only illusion, it is strong delusion. Often I think maybe I will say something different, but each time I go over what I was given and I can not find anything more urgent then to keep saying what I was given. What I saw, felt and heard, the horror of it and the joy of it. I question everyday of my life since the twelfth of 2013. I have gone over it so many times. How can I warn them of the hell that awaits them that refuse to Repent? For them who also lessen the word "Repent", to make it less then it truly is, so to shut up the Way to them that look for it. The open vision that I call the "image of lust" that took place after Christ revealed Himself in me. I can sit here and marvel at the 4th event and how it took place, how before me an image was placed and it was a transparent picture that was alive just outside of my reach, slightly elevated so that I had to look up at it. The amount of things I felt in that little moment of time, how is it even possible to feel so much so quickly? To know so much and yet what was in the image did not match what I felt. Why was I shown what I saw? Why that picture? The question chases me always. Certainly the magnitude was to leave an impression upon me that I could not deny. That I would forever remember the horror, the shear terror of it. That I might relay it to others so they would truly consider what truly matters in this life and what has very little importance. How the unimportant things draw us away from that which is truly important. It places values upon what really is at stake and the cost to paid for the two things that stand before us all, Life and death, Heaven and hell, Good and bad, Right and wrong, so on and so forth. Also the rewards for each of these two things, both of them can not be comprehended by any imagination. They can not be measured by us, nothing can be put to them. The perfect hell that is being outside the presence of God and all that is good. The perfect peace (Heaven) that is in the presence of God and there is not a single drop of what is bad. Hell there is not a single drop of good and Heaven there is not a single drop of bad. It truly is the best I can do to explain it, not a single drop of the other, it is the complete separation of the knowledge of good and evil. In that moment of Christ revealing Himself in me, my shadow was being cast upon the wall in front of me, (I do not believe I have told this before but I could be wrong, time destroys all things) my shadow was not me but Christ and it makes me cry every time I think of it. Even now though with all the time that has past, I can still feel my joy, the smile that broke out onto my face. If only I could have had a picture of myself in that moment. How I would love to see my expression. I think to myself, why did I not see a vision of anything when this 4th event took place and Christ revealed Himself to me, in me, like when it was all ripped out of me and the vision of the image of lust played before me? Not until right now, this very moment did I ever think of the shadow on the wall before me as a vision but maybe that was. Wondering what the vision could have been to express to me "Heaven", as the vision that expressed to me "lust" could have been. Myself, I have seen many pictures depicting Heaven, so one has preconceived idea of it. All this time I only thought of the vision of the image of lust that I was shown and not the shadow on the wall before me. Was that the vision? I had missed it to be what it was? Heaven being filled with the presence of the Lord, for it was literally Christ in me. Right now I hear Paul's words so perfectly "not I that liveth but Christ that liveth in me". I wonder did Paul see what I did? In that moment, God knows I tell you to the best of my ability, I felt so good, perfection is the word I can not but use. I felt that peace we all want, that rest we all desire so much and safety. I was perfectly safe, perfectly loved, perfect kindness, perfect joy, perfect love, perfect mercy, perfect in every single thing that is good. There can be no measure put to it, it could not be halved as math teaches. It was the truest understanding of "pure" that there could ever be. God knows how much I want that back. God knows the pain I carry. God knows I want this for everyone, and I mean everyone, I do not care who you are, what you have done, I want all to feel the presence of the Lord in the perfect peace that it is. But I know this is not the case. I know the other side also, hell. I know despite how much I want no one to go to hell, that it will be filled with them that refuse to Truth, that have no desire to know God. Who only want that "image of lust". When I turned to the left from that shadow of myself and Christ in me. Having been filled with beauty unspeakable. If I know what I know now, would I have turned to my left, why did I turn to my left, why did I not stay fixated upon that shadow before me? Can one even begin to see the questions one might have after experiencing such a thing? Why did I turn? Turning and instantly all that I had been filled with was yanked, ripped, pulled, taken out of me. It was instantly and it was replaced with the terror. A terror that can not be measured. I felt dirty, I was disgusted in the truest sense of the word. I did not see them, but I could feel them. All in that where in this hell, knew they had chosen it, and they all wanted without measure. That image of lust was pure wantonness. This was satan and he could not be satisfied ever. There was no contentment, no not a single drop. There was not love, not a single drop. There was not mercy, not a single drop. There was no kindness, not a single drop. There was no party in hell, like the truly foolish speak of. Not a single drop of joy. There was no peace, no rest and there was no safety. It was tangible, like one could reach up and take hold of it literally with ones hand. I still can feel a center to it and this image in my mind of it being satan and all around it are them that knew they chose to be there and it tormented them. It was dark, black, and yet I was completely aware of their presence all around me. When I read "cat out into outer darkness" I knew it was not a play upon words. It is completely devoid of light and I was tormented perfectly, how can anyone imagine what I speak of? I recall trying to grasp, to take in what was happening. I was just in the greatest state I have ever known and it was stolen from so easily and replaced with fear, torment, horror, terror, want, knowledge of choosing it, knowledge of others choosing it and knowing it. I still can not get over how dirty I felt in the presence of evil, pure evil, it was perfect in what it was, no measure could be put to it, and like math teaches, it could not be divided. There was a complete and absolute total separation from the knowledge of good and the knowledge of evil. There was not a drop, not a single drop of good in the presence of satan. That "image of lust" is stuck in my mind. A black creature, so black it contained no light. It was tiny, skinny and was looking at me. It was image but it was alive before me. There was a man in a white rob, He was looking back at me. I feel He was standing against a wall but I saw no wall. It was what I know many to think Jesus to look like. On His face was an expression of freight, eyes large expressing that freight. The devil was to the left and nearer to me. The man in the rob to my right and further from me. The devil had no horns, and its face expressed a hissing like a snake but it was not a face of a snake. It had a tail and to my surprise it had a tail with a point. I have no understanding of this image itself. I only know what I felt while I looked at it. With all the horror and terror, the filthy and vileness of it all, there was a very sexual feeling to it, that pleasure in what ought not be pleasure. It made me feel how dirty lust was, evil is, want without limit. There is more but I can not put it all into words. It is beyond my little mind to comprehend it all, God forgive me for my lack. I turned again to the left and smiled as my mind rushed with all that just took place in a matter of a couple of seconds. That is how it felt to me, I have no idea of the true time, if there was even any time that had past. I have testified many times of how time was a vary strange thing to me while I was filled with the Holy Ghost. It had no meaning to me at all, I had no concern of it. Yet after all of it, the urgency of time was ever before me, the lack of time people have to work out their own salvation with fear and trembling. The truth of this life being but a vapor, and the literalness of it. Why I mention that I smiled after the 4th event, there was a sobriety in me and yet despite it all, a joy. I testify of this all the time. The suffering and yet the joy in the knowledge of the Truth. That there is so much more to this life then what we see. That outside of the absolute childishness of what man does in this world, pettiness, their is truly a purpose that is beyond any of us to fully understand yet, or, if ever. We are in a place that is teaching, testing, observing what we truly desire, what we truly are. Whom do we truly yield ourselves to obey! This makes me recall that it is right that God do with what is His as He pleases. Despite the complaints of so many thinking Him unfair or unjust, unequal. When it is we that are unfair and unjust and unequal. Matthew 20:15, " Is it not lawful for me to do what I will with mine own? Is thine eye evil, because I am good? " Ezekiel 18:25, " Yet ye say, The way of the Lord is not equal. Hear now, O house of Israel; Is not my way equal? are not your ways unequal? " Ezekiel 18:29, " Yet saith the house of Israel, The way of the Lord is not equal. O house of Israel, are not my ways equal? are not your ways unequal? " Ezekiel 33:17, " Yet the children of thy people say, The way of the Lord is not equal: but as for them, their way is not equal. " Ezekiel 33:20, " Yet ye say, The way of the Lord is not equal. O ye house of Israel, I will judge you every one after his ways. " At times I just smile at what is put before us as important and how so many cling to it, devour it. As if it had true value such as Life giving quality's. When it is absolutely nothing but dung and only worthy of the trash heap of history. Other times I just simply cry at the foolishness that is this life filled with lust. Ever wanting more and more and more when so many have nothing. Which brings me to that line, a line I have spoken of many times. What is that line? Where is enough and where is to much? To talk about that line, could, take life times, if one was so compelled to do so. It becomes a plate to pile on as much or as little as one will choose. It becomes a thing of provisions, what will one accept, what will one invent, create to have what they desire despite the cost to others. What is that line? Where is the stand morally one will not take another step. How fare will one go to be comfortable and not suffer for another? Most already know perfectly of this I speak, which many call the "human condition". Filled with sin nature, original sin, born to sin, born in sin, have no choice but to sin, can not but sin, have no ability, no power, to weak, to helpless but to give into that knowledge of evil. Even if they know the Truth! Even if they are born again! Even if they love the Lord with their all? To the point that we have that liberty in corruption, known today as a license to sin. That parallel of a marriage and adultery that one is confessing their absolute love and fidelity but being anything but faithful. For better or worst, richer or poor, sickness and health, till death do we part "fidelity", but breaking our oaths for our own desires and yet "we love" but not really, it is provisional. As long as I do not have to give up what I want. As long as I have nothing to bear. No one is forced to do anything but out of comfort and the fear of loosing that comfort, one choices what ought never be chosen. One does not have to, but one willingly chooses to. It is a test, a time to learn what evil truly is and how ugly it is in all its forms. No matter how small or great. What do we have pleasure in, the righteous or the unrighteous? To whom do we yield ourselves servants to obey? The key is "we yield", for we are always trying to make a provision for choosing evil and not the good. When it matters not what others do, it matters what we do. That childishness ever present, "well they get to do it, so why can't I?" He did this, so I did that. Tit for tat, evil for evil, rail for rail, for envy, for covetousness. To see the evil and want to also be able, be free, or a license to watch porn, get high, be unfaithful, rob steal and kill. Make no provisions to fulfill the lust of the flesh. The flesh is not evil, there is nothing in your flesh that is evil, it is just you choosing to be evil or to be good. The simple Truth is always present, even when we ignore it. We are to eat of the butter and the honey. Eat of the good things so we can see and hear the bad things and KNOW to refuse the evil and choose the good. If you eat of evil, you will be evil, if you mix the cup, a little evil a little good, evil it still what you are. The good tree only makes good fruit, it can not make bad fruit or it was never really a good tree! Only a bad tree can make bad fruit. If bad fruit is what you like, then you will reap that and there is that cost and that reward. The cost and reward for it is your soul in hell everlasting, an everlasting destruction from the presence of the Lord, where the smoke of your torment will rise forever before the Lamb and His angles. That is the cost being paid right now by all who love evil, love them that do it and love doing it, who have pleasure in it. It consumes all that any man truly possesses, heart, mind, body and soul. Romans 13:14, " But put ye on the Lord Jesus Christ, and make not provision for the flesh, to fulfil the lusts thereof. " Provision - a thing invented so one can have reason, excuse for not being true, faithful, loyal, monogamous, trusty, obedient. Free of fidelity. The good tree will reap good, and that everlasting life in the presence of the Lord and His angels. The cost is the same, for it is the greatest of Commandments. To love God with all your heart, mind, body and soul. Pay the cost, deny thyself, take up thine own cross and follow Christ. Fear the Lord, to hate evil, to have no pleasure in evil, while it is on full display all around us, ever tempting us to come and partake. The enemy is upon every side, everyday. The reward is worth the cost, with all thy might strive ye to enter in, to dig deep, to awake to righteousness and sin not. Trust in the Lord and do good. Trust not in men, not in princes, but trust ye in the Lord. Luke 19:43, " For the days shall come upon thee, that thine enemies shall cast a trench about thee, and compass thee round, and keep thee in on every side, " I went from being what I was, to being what I am now. I have spent years working out my salvation since what took place on that twelfth month in 2013. Having nothing new, for there is nothing new, it is just me doing what is right or not. It is not a television/movie version, it is just you doing what is right. Who will you yield yourselves to, sin unto death or obedience unto righteousness? It really is that simple, but man has created, invented, many foolish things. I have not attained anything till I have attained that thing. I have not run the race till I finish the race. I can not be crowned until I have actually been crowned. What hope is there in what I already possess. What race have I in me, if I am told the race was already run for me? Who hears the filthiness of such a lie? Who hears lay down, give up, leave the field of battle for it was fought already for you? I have heard these things from many, all professing to be born again and yet hearing nothing of that moment one is truly born again. That false witness is upon all sides and is ever trying to disarm them that truly desire to enter in. The buffet or what is simply served? The Truth or a lie? What do you eat of sin and death, or obedience and righteousness? What is on your plate? The license to sin. It has many names, many forms and everyone seems to carry them or at least one and some carry many of them. It leads to that buffet gospel, to pick and choose what one wants the image of God to be like to them and not what the image of God is. It brings to the forefront they who change the image of God into the image of corruptible man, Romans 1. Romans 1:23, " And changed the glory of the uncorruptible God into an image made like to corruptible man, and to birds, and fourfooted beasts, and creeping things. " To teach others they can not but be what they want to be but be that which they want not to be. To sell the old man that Paul spoke of as the new man found in Christ crucified and resurrected. The selling of the old as the new. The using of the old bottle and trying to fill it with the new. It is so very clear but people just keep piling it on their plates and eating of it. To be promised liberty as they serve corruption. To be promised Life, when it is death? To remove the works, and the doing of anything so it has to all be done for them. To say you have already, what one does not yet have. To remove the hope of things to come for having that thing already. To take the fight, the drive, the yearning, the hunger, the thirst out of them. To give that false image, to sell it, to convince others it is the true image. To take down that standard, to lower the bar, to remove all that is truly good and replace it for a cheap imitation. Christ told the devil we are to live by every word that proceedeth out of the mouth of God. For it is His love expressed, spoken, written and to tell us what is good, acceptable and the perfect will of Him. So they who love Him may follow Him, may become that image they where made in. To be faithful to Him, truly, not by lip service. To give thine heart, mind, body and soul. To set thine hands to the plough and to never take them off. To walk away from that evil and look not back. To take a stand and be not moved from it, no matter the cost. To know before hand the cost and to be willing to pay that cost. Go ye and count the cost that is truly required to build upon the foundation that is Christ. Do not deceive thyself or buy any provisions by them that deceive. Understand there is a cost to be paid, and know that you must be able to finish the build all the way till the end. Do not lie to yourself and do not buy their lies. It is they who endure till the end that are saved! Matthew 10:22, " And ye shall be hated of all men for my name's sake: but he that endureth to the end shall be saved. " Is it not a work to live by what God has said? Is doing what someone tells you to do, must do, is required to do, is that a work or not a work? To be a doer and not just a hearer, is that a work or not a work? To run a race, is this a work or not a work? To dig deep, is this a work or not a work? To strive to enter in, is this a work or not a work? To stand fast, is this a work or not a work? To hold fast, is this a work or not a work? To work out your own salvation with fear and trembling, is this a work or not a work? To war a good warfare, is this a work or not a work? To be a soldier, is this a work or not a work? To endure till the end, is this a work or not a work? To obey from the heart the doctrine of God, is this a work or not a work? If ye love Me, keep My Commandments, is this a work or not a work? To affirm constantly, is this a work or not a work? To study to show thyself approved, is this a work or not a work? To be faithful unto death as the Lord hath said is truly a work, a great work, a mighty work and it requires ones all till the when? The End! To write of the Lord for years, to repeat thyself endlessly, to wake and praise ye the Lord, to lay down to sleep and praise ye the Lord, to keep thy mind set upon the Lord, to put others in remembrance to forget not, to give the testimony thou was given, are any of these things works or not works? In the book of solid steel, James. Faith without works is dead and works without faith is dead. To them that have yet to truly hear, Repent, is this not a work? Which word spoken ought one not live by but that which was nailed to the cross? We then are workers together with God and we are besought to not take the Grace of God in vain. To make it useless. Not only the time of grace but the teaching. Who reads this and already knows the teachings of the Grace of God? When Christ said "deny thyself and take up thine cross and follow Me", who hears the teachings of the Grace of God? 2 Corinthians 6:1, " We then, as workers together with him, beseech you also that ye receive not the grace of God in vain. " Matthew 4:4, " But he answered and said, It is written, Man shall not live by bread alone, but by every word that proceedeth out of the mouth of God. " Titus 2:11, " For the grace of God that bringeth salvation hath appeared to all men, Titus 2:12 Teaching us that, denying ungodliness and worldly lusts, we should live soberly, righteously, and godly, in this present world; " Works.. To tear down sin, to tear down the idea that one can freely sin. To tear down the filthy lies of it all being done for you, all paid, all obeyed so that there is nothing required of you but to "just say" you believe and there be no fruit produced. That same old man remaining and there be no newness of life. Lip service provides nothing, for it is "confess" and then "forsake". What good does it do to confess and then continue in that which was confessed? Lip service is no service and God is not mocked. He searches the thoughts, the intents of the heart. I always think of the "Go and Sin No More". Why say something that was not the Way? Why tell anyone to "Go and Sin No More" if doing so could not help them, benefit them, had not a purpose for them to grow? Why not just tell them to believe as so many do? Why not express the future to them and quote John 3 like so many do? Why would Christ not just say, hey, no worries, not only Am I going to forgive your sins but I am going to pay it all, past, present and future, do it all for you, obey it all for you, finish it all for you. For there is nothing that you can do, for the Father has made thee a born sinner, you are imbued with a sin nature and there will be a book written called the Westminster Confession and in that book it will explain how no one, not even one will ever be "able" to not sin. Even the born again saints of God will not be able. That there will be nothing anyone can ever do, so I am going to do it all for you, just believe, just hope, just trust in My finished works that I Am soon to do for you. Heaven is filled with sinners, so kiss the feet of statues and bow to them. There is nothing for you to do, nothing required of you. Get high, get drunk, be evil, enjoy it all, it is not what you do it is all what I have done for you. How many times has one heard "Go and Sin No More" is not the Way? How about, "deny thyself, take up thine own cross and follow Christ" is not the Way? How about "Repent and make straight the Way" is not the Way? How about "Christ did not come to morally reform us". He just came to do it all so we only had to repeat a sinners prayer, make an altar call and just believe. Going and sinning no more is not the way. That is a work and they who work it out are going to hell. I have heard all these things and they are easy to find. John 5:14, " Afterward Jesus findeth him in the temple, and said unto him, Behold, thou art made whole: sin no more, lest a worse thing come unto thee. " John 8:11, " She said, No man, Lord. And Jesus said unto her, Neither do I condemn thee: go, and sin no more. " The New Testament says Psalms and Hymns. Did they make a mistake? Psalms 4 tells us to "Sin Not". Psalms 4:4, " Stand in awe, and sin not: commune with your own heart upon your bed, and be still. Selah. " Ephesians 5:19, " Speaking to yourselves in psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, singing and making melody in your heart to the Lord; " Colossians 3:16, " Let the word of Christ dwell in you richly in all wisdom; teaching and admonishing one another in psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, singing with grace in your hearts to the Lord. " James 5:13, " Is any among you afflicted? let him pray. Is any merry? let him sing psalms " I will "sin not", I will "keep" my mouth. Again, was a mistake made? I have been told it matters not what I do and that all that does matter is what Christ did. So which is it, is it all obeyed by Christ so I need to obey nothing or is it Christ fulfilled that which He had to so we could be free from that which we could not be and obey from the heart going and sinning no more? What is the true image we are to become? What is overcoming, being free to commit an thing or freedom from committing a thing? Psalms 39:1, " I said, I will take heed to my ways, that I sin not with my tongue: I will keep my mouth with a bridle, while the wicked is before me. " Ezekiel told by God to tell the righteous to "sin not", and they who heed this Truth, this love given by God, they will surely live. Will this Truth be left behind on that buffet gospel? Which is the image of God we are created in? A born sinner, built in nature to sin, or is it that free will nature to choose. Choose to be righteous or unrighteous and for the righteous to be righteous they would have to sin not. The image of God is not that of a sinner, but that of the righteous. Gods face beholds, is upon the righteous and not the sinner. They who do righteousness are righteous even as Christ is righteous. It is the doer of the word and not just the hearer. Ezekiel 3:21, " Nevertheless if thou warn the righteous man, that the righteous sin not, and he doth not sin, he shall surely live, because he is warned; also thou hast delivered thy soul." Paul wrote "Awake to righteousness and Sin Not". Would that not surely be a work? To set thy hands to the plough and do what is said to do, surely that is a work. If that is a work (and it is), then what are the works that no man can do to be saved, but are the works only Christ could do, and did do for all? 1 Corinthians 15:34, " Awake to righteousness, and sin not; for some have not the knowledge of God: I speak this to your shame. " How about that "clothed in the righteousness of Christ" even as we walk in the filth of sin? That God does not so you but Christ even as you serve corruption. How about that departing from iniquity? Why tell me to depart from iniquity when it is all paid, all obeyed, all finished for me, and besides that, there is not even one who does good, no not even one. Surely this proves that no one can be righteous, no one can Go and Sin No More. Not even the born again saints of God can Go and Sin No More. Not even the newness of life found in Christ can we Go and Sin No More. We are totally depraved, and besides Christ did not come to convict anyone of sin or morally reform anyone, no not even one of us. With all those lies how does irresistible grace fit in then? Is it not a work to "depart" from iniquity? Does that not take effort. 2 Timothy 2:19, " Nevertheless the foundation of God standeth sure, having this seal, The Lord knoweth them that are his. And, Let every one that nameth the name of Christ depart from iniquity. " How about that servant is required to be faithful? How can anything be required if it is all been paid, all obeyed, all finished, all done already, all forgiven already? What can be asked of me if it were truly irresistible? Who thinks of such evil things and who buys them? 1 Corinthians 4:2, " Moreover it is required in stewards, that a man be found faithful. " There is a Way that is right and there is a way of man that is wrong. Trust not in men, trust in the Lord. Live by every word and skip the buffet line. It is a lot to sift through and it is a waste of time, precious time to work out ones own salvation with fear and trembling. Who goes out to see a reed shaken in the wind? The mercy of the Lord endured forever, if I, then anyone. But not just anyone, REPENT! The Lords day has passed, I have rested and I am thankful for it, God be praised. It is remission and not permission. Seek, Repent and Sin No More. We are the words we speak. Blessed be the Name of the Lord Amen and Amen. https://lesliewross.weebly.com/blog/buffet
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All That Matters Is Christ...Weeks before my death the Lord knocked upon my heart, I heard and opened the door. My life has been forever changed, a new man indeed. Me a wicked man saved by the Grace of God, no more that wicked man. Died at 43 and was given a choice to stay or go. If I stayed I had to tell of the Lord Jesus Christ and here I am. I share my walk with my Lord, my candle is lit and I pray it be a light for all to know the Lord Jesus is the Way to the Truth to have Life, Amen. Archives
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