My Lord:
Having heard, truly heard from God through the Holy Ghost, I am nothing for it. Just a man once unbelieving, now a believer indeed. Never would of truly believed from my heart but the Lord called, the whole of the world testifies that God is, I acknowledged that and then it all began. Having given my testimony and sharing my walk as I search, and study to show myself approved and be worthy of His use. Hoping always that I will hear again even though I was given so very much, I am truly greedy for the Lord, and for the Truth. How can one not be greedy for Him if they know what I speak of? Near eight years now and I still cry at the remembrance of what I lived. How can it be I ask from time to time. Marvel at all and yet it is not enough to express the joy of the precious gift I was given. Not just to believe, but to know with absolute knowing. It hurts to know there is joy and there is pain, for I surely did not deserve such a beautiful thing. That still breaks me, knowing I did the things I did. It is not just the doing of them, it was the pleasure I had in doing them. When I first heard and felt every single emotion all at once, the forgiveness and the shame knowing God truly knew it all. Heard it all, saw it all, and seconds before this I was told I was forgiven and had that vision play before my open eyes. Now laying on the floor crying like I had never cried in my entire life. Holy tears from the deepest depths of my being, I am sorry God. Sorry for it all even now so many years later. Did not really think I would still be here, surely caught in between two. Wanting to be again in the presence of Lord and yet knowing I was asked to tell of Him. I always wonder if I should write it all again, who really wants to read again this testimony that was given to me by the Lord through the very Spirit of God, the Holy Ghost. I understand them that mock the Truth, look at me with that look when I say I literally heard from God. It still sounds a bit crazy even now. I do like saying and seeing into the eyes of them I am speaking to. Truly the eyes are the windows to the soul. They speak so loudly. I love the Lord, He set me free indeed. Despite all the lies I heard right out of the gate. Despite the offers of the devil, for I heard from him as well and my answer was "NO!". I love the Lord, with all my heart, all my mind, all my body, all my soul and all my might. He is my love, He suffered so much for me. I did not know such love could be until I was shown Christ in me. Did not know such mercy could be but I was shown such such great mercy. All that is good I could type it here, every good thing that is or will be cometh from the Father of Lights Amen. I loveth the Lord Who died for me, died for all. That death is not the preforgiveness, all paid, all obeyed, all finished thing so many twist it into. It is the free gift that no man could do, Christ gave His Life and made a WAY for us all who will come to Him. Do not let anyone cheapen the Life given so one can remain a filthy rag wretch forever unable. Seek, Repent and Sin No More, fighting that good fight of faith working by love and proven by deeds. Run you the race, give chase and endure it all. Make perfect through suffering, became humble through obedience. Again, Why would one have to walk worthy of God if it is true that we are fully and wholly incapable of it? If we only have a nature to sin, born to it, and even bear a license for it, why would anyone put forth an effort to walk worthy of God? I ask always, why be born again if one remains the same as that which was crucified with Christ? Why would God give anyone a new heart and yet it be the same as the old heart? So many contradictions between what God has said and what men do say. God is a just God and all His Ways are perfect. Would God ask anyone to do what they surely could not do? When God told Cain to do well, was Cain incapable of doing well? We know that God allows no one to be tempted more then they could endure. Then surely Cain could have loved Able, loved the ability to rule over it and not allow sin to lay at the door of his heart and rule over him. Truly God is just and perfect. Deuteronomy 32:4, " He is the Rock, his work is perfect: for all his ways are judgment: a God of truth and without iniquity, just and right is He. " Them that are called are to walk worthy. Just as they who Name the Name of the Lord are to depart from all iniquity. If these statements are true then where is the inability that men speak of? Where is the totally depraved and wholly unable regenerated man? Where is the born again sinner? Where are the sinning saints of God? Where are these lies found? Where are they no more? Here, a stronghold is found built upon the sand. It can not endure until the end where men will be saved, crowned. It can not endure the storm of time to work out ones own salvation with fear and trembling. It will be torn down down brick by brick, stone by stone, piece by piece until not one layeth upon another. That no mention can be made; here laid once a stronghold of men's vanity. 1 Thessalonians 2:12, " That ye would walk worthy of God, who hath called you unto his kingdom and glory. " I was told God expects men to sin. I thought God expected men to obey. So who is vain in their imaginations? God said He planted the choicest of grapes and asked where did these wild grapes come from? Surely He expected good grapes, surely He did. Isaiah 5:2, " And he fenced it, and gathered out the stones thereof, and planted it with the choicest vine, and built a tower in the midst of it, and also made a winepress therein: and he looked that it should bring forth grapes, and it brought forth wild grapes. " Isaiah 5:4, " What could have been done more to my vineyard, that I have not done in it? wherefore, when I looked that it should bring forth grapes, brought it forth wild grapes? " Of them that walk worthy of God. How does a filthy rag walk worthy? How does the chief of sinners walk worthy of God? How does a man incapable of heeding the Word of God walk worthy of God? How does a man that wants to do what is right but never does what is right walk worthy of God? How does the forever wretch walk worthy of God that he may be counted worthy of God? Does Romans 3 speak of the born again or them who have yet to truly acknowledge the whole Truth? I have been told this applies to the saints of God and I find it hard to swallow, in fact it is impossible for me to swallow for I find it completely absurd. Who really thinks the verses below speak of a man born again? I do marvel at such an idea, how great is ones desire to be evil, to invent such an expression of a man truly born again into anew creation but remains that man that does not even seek after God? Let alone all the other descriptions given. Romans 3:10, " As it is written, There is none righteous, no, not one: Romans 3:11 There is none that understandeth, there is none that seeketh after God. Romans 3:12 They are all gone out of the way, they are together become unprofitable; there is none that doeth good, no, not one. Romans 3:13 Their throat is an open sepulchre; with their tongues they have used deceit; the poison of asps is under their lips: Romans 3:14 Whose mouth is full of cursing and bitterness: Romans 3:15 Their feet are swift to shed blood: Romans 3:16 Destruction and misery are in their ways: Romans 3:17 And the way of peace have they not known: Romans 3:18 There is no fear of God before their eyes. " Just believe they say. When believing is true but it is not just believe. A little here and a little there and we find with all thine heart. We find deepness of root once one receives the Word, the seed. Upon what ground it clearly and plainly tells us did the seed fall? Was the ground tilled, fallowed, prepared for the seed? Was it ready to acknowledge the whole Truth? Many called, few chosen. Was it the ground, a heart, that had had enough of the filthy vileness of sin? Was it truly prepared, broken/broken up, so that the seed/Word could find a place to be planted that it might find deepness of root? Deepness that the evil one could not easily steal, kill and destroy it. Deepness, that the sun could not scorch. I had had enough, that is when I truly sought and found. I truly heard and I desire this for anyone, for all. To truly hear and know without doubt that God is. Bless be them that believe and have not heard. Believing and producing fruits by that belief. Belief that is alive, and is being added to. Believe that is faith, that is working from the heart. Believing with thine whole heart. Whose mouth that loveth the Lord is filled with cursing and bitterness? Who has heard and yet seeks not after God? I am a broken record and the message will not change. There are no sinning saints, no born again sinners, no totally depraved new creations. Heaven is not filled with sinners. Heaven is filled with the obedient saints of God, born again and that Go and Sin No More, that obey from the heart the doctrine of God. That fight to do what is right always. Everyday willing to die, would rather die than to go and have pleasure in the filth of sin. The righteous do not sin, they are not lusting after the flesh, not giving into the temptation committing the sins unto death. Blessed are they who endureth temptation. They who do not endure are not blessed. They who sin are of the devil, not of God. Hell is filled with them that lie and they will not be getting out ever. Rob Bells teaching will not get you out of hell. It is an everlasting punishment from the presence of the Lord. If God speared not the angels, what does one think of them that trample the precious blood of the Son under foot will receive? What of them that neglect the precious gift of the blood of the only Lord and Savior? James 1:12, " Blessed is the man that endureth temptation: for when he is tried, he shall receive the crown of life, which the Lord hath promised to them that love him. " 1 John 3:8, " He that committeth sin is of the devil; for the devil sinneth from the beginning. For this purpose the Son of God was manifested, that he might destroy the works of the devil. " In that book of solid steel, James, in the verse above I hear that Truth I speak of much. When is a person crowned? When the race is run and finished, not before. Who is crowned? Them that love Him. What do those who love Him do? Do they continue in the flesh, walking in the flesh, sinning saints, born again sinners, totally depraved, sin nature, license to sin? Or is as written in the book of the Lord, they Go and Sin No More, they simple obey the simple Truth of it all. They who love Me, keep My Commandments. Is faith then seen to be what it is, faithfulness. Is it by faith alone, or is it by every word? Is it just believe or is it by every word? Is it just trust or is it by every word? What is a faith not added to? What is believe not added to? What is trust not added to? What is any word on the surface and what is a word below the surface? There are no blessing in sin, in inability, in professing the Name of the Lord Jesus and not departing from sin. Yet that is all I have heard from the beginning. The poor reborn souls that just can not obey, could not obey, do not need to obey. God only sees Jesus and we all can just sin the Grace of God away. You can not out sin grace! You can not lose your salvation. God knows we are going to sin, going to continue to sin. The regenerated are wholly given to sin. What is wrong with just walking worthy of God? What is wrong with not walking in the flesh and walking in the Spirit? What is better freedom to sin, or freedom from sin? What is better, the Spirit of Power that gives ability or the Spirit of Power that has no power? Guess it depends on who one loves most. What one truly desire to hear and what one desires not to hear. Who desire judgement and conviction that the Holy Ghost brings. Who desires the Grace of God that teaches all men to DENY ungodliness and worldly lusts and to live soberly, righteously and godly lives in this present world? They who sin are of the devil, they are not of God. So were is the verse that says the born again that sin are of God? 1 John 3 is brutally plain when it says " they who sin are of the devil". Where is that brutal plainness that says "there of some of God who sin the sins unto death but will have Life"? I keep this on my wall at work, wrote IT way back when. I quote this verse all the time. Philippians 4:13, " I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me. " BUT CEASE FROM SIN! BUT WALK WORTHY OF GOD! Because of what happened right out of the Gate, this is my battle always. To tear the strongholds I found built up in the traditions, inventions and commandments of men. The things offered me, provisions. I was now free to use the Name of the Lord Jesus the Messiah and break all the Commandments I wanted to, for it was all pre paid, all obeyed, all finished. Of course with this provision, I may not desire to sin the sins unto death, but I surely will sin the sins unto death. Always the provision, we must always have provisions by the traditions, invention and commandments of men. Who wants to hear about stopping sin? Who wants to hear it about it all being done for them? Who wants to hear about walking worthy of God? Who wants to hear about the provisions men invent to allow sin to reign in ones mortal body? Who wants to be totally depraved and unable to do anything but sin and plead the blood? Psalms 5:9, " For there is no faithfulness in their mouth; their inward part is very wickedness; their throat is an open sepulchre; they flatter with their tongue. " Who are they that promise liberty as they serve corruption? Who tells you that you can not out sin the Grace of God? Who justifies the wicked and condemns the just? Who makes no difference between the righteous of God and the wicked? Who wearies the Lord with their words? Who promises Life to the wicked? Who says God does not require anything of them? Who says God will never see it? Who perverts the Words of the living God? Who heaps many teachers upon themselves? Who desires smooth things? Who desires deceit? Who desires the false prophet? Who desires the priests rule by their own means? Who says they are delivered to commit abominations? Who uses lies for their refuge? Who hides under falsehoods? Who loves to have these things? Who will take the time to answer these questions? Who can answer these questions? Who will? I ask again, how is it just to tell us that we are not to allow sin to reign in out mortal bodies, but everywhere I read, we can not but allow sin to reign because we are totally depraved even after being washed, born again and set free? What is just about demanding something of anyone that can not be do by them? Who is lying, who is a liar and a thief? Does God tempt men or liars and thieves? Many believe they are saved already and yet they are these Romans 3 and Romans 7 forever wretched filthy rags, but are born again, clean, new, spotless. Have a new heart but continue the sins unto death unabated by the conscience and the new heart. Forever incapable to obey the Lord who said "Go and Sin No More". Forever must serve the flesh, must walk in the flesh despite being told that only them who walk in the Spirit and not the flesh are not condemned. How many times has one heard that there is no condemnation in Christ and yet never once heard that person finish it with "IF" you walk in the Spirit and not the flesh? How many have heard how the Holy Ghost did not come to convict us of sin? Yet the book tells us that is exactly what the Holy Ghost will do? How does a person convicted of sin, reproved of it, and being in love with the Lord now go about fully, wholly unable to cease from sin? How does that person bear the weight of knowing the Truth and continuing in the sins unto death without even blushing? Who wants to take up these provisions? Who chases after these inventions? Who sells this mire as a scented rose? These people who hear the Word but have it is instantly stolen by the devil? Do these people think they are saved, they heard the Word? Do these people who received the Word into stony places believe they are saved? They received the Word, something happened to them. But they clearly go back to the old man and do not return, are they once saved always saved? They straightway received the Word, they endured for awhile, so they believed, they had faith, they heard, they knew there is a God, they knew Christ died upon the tree for them. But do they go about sure of their salvation even though they clearly no longer endure as the Lord has said plainly. It is them who do endure unto the end are saved. Do these people who received the seed, the Word, amongst thorns think they are saved? Having heard also, they are further along then them that heard but understood it not and had it taken from them. Further along then them who received it in stony places. Are they absolutely saved? Surely they had a belief, surely they had faith, just not the a faith that had anything added to it, like virtue, effectual operation and fact of state of being. Yet clearly they are not saved, the cares of this world and the deceitfulness of riches choked the Word and they become unfruitful, like a fig tree maybe? Then is it a requirement of a tree to produce good fruit? Why mention they have become unfruitful if that really does not matter? Is that an example of a bar set at a point one must rise to meet. Are the invention men create examples of a bar lowered so they do not have to rise to meet but can just be whatever suites them? But some receive the seed, the Word upon good ground that has been prepared to receive it. True repentance, truly sorrow, truly broken over what they have found in them, truly ready to confess and forsake, truly have had enough of sin and that fear of death. I find that there are as it is written in Matthew 13 many different levels people find themselves. Some have heard but the message is instantly stolen. Them that have heard and with joy receive the message. Endure for a while but are offended that it is not all sunshine and roses so many falsely put forth, the lack of root they give up. Them that hear the message yet all the things the world uses to distract calls that person back, no more fruit is produced. All these things are awful to hear, and they surely can offend. They make one think how many only go through the motions but truly have no love for the Lord? Not coming to the Truth prepared for it. Prepared for the Truth of it and what really awaits them. For them that are willing to live godly in Christ are most miserable, yet they rise in the morning and praise ye the Lord. I slept well or slept not at all, I am at peace or I am not at peace at all, either way they wake up and praise the Lord. They endure by hope of the message. The foolishness of preaching and them that take the message to heart and run with it. A very simple message I repeat constantly. God told Cain to do well. The book speaks of well doing and the absence of sin. But I never hear this message out there. It is always do your best, try and never think you can walk free of sin and the fear of death. Learn to do well, it is not just given to you, it is not done for you, it is not all wrapped up for you and there is nothing on the part of ones own self to do. It is do it, say it and do it. Depart from iniquity, learn to depart from it. It is have no pleasure in unrighteousness, it is learn to do it. It is stand fast, learn to do it. It is SEEK JUDGEMENT, learn to do it. This message is do well and you will be worthy of Gods use. Do not well and you will be worthy of evils use. I have washed in My blood, now Go and Sin No More. Take advantage of this free gift of my Life given for you to be set free indeed. Do not trample it, to not take it for granted, do not neglect it. How precious is this time of grace by the Life of our Lord and Savior? Don't let evil come and steal it. Don't let tribulation and persecution rob you of it. Don't let the silly, down right stupid cares of this life destroy what the Truth really is and what truly matters. You must fight for it despite all telling you it is all been fought for you. You must endure despite them that tell you it is all endured already for you. You must hold fast despite them that tell you it is all being held for you. You must walk as He walks, follow, despite all selling you He is carrying you and there is nothing you can do for your self but be carried. You can take the time to read the book. You can take the time to write. You can take the time to tell of Him. You can work out your own salvation with fear and trembling and endure it all unto the end. You can love His appearing, and sin will not love it. Must have root within ones self to endure, for it is not all roses and sunshine. It is warfare and war is not pretty, it is ugly and it requires of a soldier to be faithful. Do well soldier, do well, fight the good fight of a faith working by love and proven by deeds. Do well, for you are able to do well. What is the desire of thine heart? Isaiah 1:17, " Learn to do well; seek judgment, relieve the oppressed, judge the fatherless, plead for the widow. " Matthew 13:19, " When any one heareth the word of the kingdom, and understandeth it not, then cometh the wicked one, and catcheth away that which was sown in his heart. This is he which received seed by the way side. Matthew 13:20 But he that received the seed into stony places, the same is he that heareth the word, and anon with joy receiveth it; Matthew 13:21 Yet hath he not root in himself, but dureth for a while: for when tribulation or persecution ariseth because of the word, by and by he is offended. Matthew 13:22 He also that received seed among the thorns is he that heareth the word; and the care of this world, and the deceitfulness of riches, choke the word, and he becometh unfruitful. Matthew 13:23 But he that received seed into the good ground is he that heareth the word, and understandeth it; which also beareth fruit, and bringeth forth, some an hundredfold, some sixty, some thirty. " I heard a question asked: "Do you believe in God"? I expected to hear after what "believe" is, but it was not spoken of. Like all things there is belief and then there is belief. There is a surface one sees and then there is everything under the surface that holds up what is on the surface. Like the parable says, deepness of root. How deep is thine root of belief, or faith for they are the very same thing and produce the very same fruit. There is the seed that sprouts and then begins to grow. It just does not spring into a full grown tree. So then while belief is the beginning, it is not the end. Faith is the beginning it is not the end. Just like running a race, one must actually run it and finish it to win the prize. Many run not all will win either. It is " RUN " that you may obtain. It is not I have run some, believed some, had some faith and already have obtained. It is not run for you already finished. So one can just go about doing as they please, doing the will of the flesh, walking in the flesh. Flesh walkers, the walking dead; Who finds it strange these concepts are mocked by the world? 1 Corinthians 9:24, " Know ye not that they which run in a race run all, but one receiveth the prize? So run, that ye may obtain. " Listen for the call, Truly to find Him one must believe, and not believe alone but with all thine heart believe. Once found what is required? Is it not written to be faithful? If belief is found true, what is the depth of the root? Always it is obedience unto righteousness. What makes the flesh to suffer? Obedience. What makes the Spirit to mourn? Disobedience. Truly they are against one another, so then whom do you serve? Did Paul err in Romans 6, saying, sin unto death or obedience unto righteousness? What happened to just believe? Was that belief turned into more once found? Surely it was. What happened to faith alone? Was it not added to as Peter points out in 2Peter 1? Counted worthy for which you suffer. What is suffering, your spirit or your flesh? Whom do ye yield yourselves servants to obey? 2 Thessalonians 1:5, " Which is a manifest token of the righteous judgment of God, that ye may be counted worthy of the kingdom of God, for which ye also suffer: " Them that obey are not condemned already. For it is they who walk in the Spirit and not the flesh who know there is no condemnation in Christ. They who truly are in the body. They of the flesh are condemned and they know it. I knew it. I not only knew it, I desired it. Never wanting to be forgiven for the evil I knew I had done. Incapable of every forgiving truly. Praying to a God I knew not to never forgive me. I say again, God be praised He hears not sinners. He heareth the Repentant, the broken, them who have had enough of the vileness of sin and the fear of death. What is to fear in the Lord but He alone. 2 Thessalonians 1:8, " In flaming fire taking vengeance on them that know not God, and that obey not the gospel of our Lord Jesus Christ: " 2 Timothy 2:12, " If we suffer, we shall also reign with him: if we deny him, he also will deny us: " If we suffer, we walk worthy of Him we shall reign with Him. For them who are of the world suffer it not. They who are friends with the world are hate towards God. Show thyself approved, work out your own salvation with fear and trembling. Be ye meet/worthy of the Masters use. Be ye prepared for every good work. When it comes you will not be offended if you are prepared. If you already have the wisdom, the knowledge, that understanding. You will not need to buy their many provisions but you can stand fast upon the Truth and not lies. 2 Timothy 2:15, " Study to shew thyself approved unto God, a workman that needeth not to be ashamed, rightly dividing the word of truth. " 2 Timothy 2:21, " If a man therefore purge himself from these, he shall be a vessel unto honour, sanctified, and meet for the master's use, and prepared unto every good work. " I have been told no one need walk worthy. I have been told that your all is not required. Your whole heart, whole mind, whole body, whole spirit, whole might as the book tells us is not required. Good if you do and still good if you do not, just say you believe. Whether ant fruit is produced matters not at all. Whether your hot or cold matters not at all. You can be luke warm, you can be on the fence, you can share the cup of the Lord and the cups of devils. You can share the table of the Lord and the table of devils. You can obey anyway, you can not be a doer, you can not stand fast, or hold fast. You have been given a license to sin because this is the best you can achieve, the most you can hope for in this life. The regenerated born again sinner is all you can truly expect of yourselves, just believe for there is nothing required beyond just believing. Blessed are eyes that see and the ears that hear. How are they blessed? Blessed to now live freely in the abominations of sin filled life? What is a blessing that does not actually producing something that one would think a blessing would produce? Again, what is the Spirit of Power called the Spirit of Power if there is no power? Either they have all never heard truly or they have heard and rejected the Truth. We know there are twos sides, the wheat and the tares. We know satan is growing his army and that the Lord His. We know there is a fight between good and evil. A fight between light and dark. The world mocks this Truth always in art as it denies the one true Living God. At every turn one can see the abominations paraded before us as normal. All the sins unto death treated as a light thing. To let people look upon the foulest of things and call it good. Always as Eve saw it to be, good pleasant and to be desired. The knowledge of evil was good, pleasant and something to desire. She did eat of this filthy lie and did give to others to eat of it. Have you truly heard? Do you truly believe? Do you truly have faith? Have you seen? Matthew 13:16, " But blessed are your eyes, for they see: and your ears, for they hear. " Works, sow righteousness, reap mercy. They who do what is righteous are righteous even as He is righteous. They who obey from the heart are righteous in deeds. Fruits produced that are good fruits. Do well and you will be accepted. Seek ye the Lord, prepare the ground to receive the Word, the seed. Sow righteousness and the day will come when it will rain righteousness. What you sow, you will reap. What was reaped is what was sowed. Hosea 10:12, " Sow to yourselves in righteousness, reap in mercy; break up your fallow ground: for it is time to seek the LORD, till he come and rain righteousness upon you. " I surely beseech you all, I gladly beg and plead. I beg not just you, but myself, I plead with myself always, I beseech myself, please walk worthy of what I was given, even though all I hear is how I can not, that none can ever. Despite what they say, you walk worthy, do it for the Love of God, be a doer and not just an hearer. Fight, please I'm begging you to fight with all thine might. Do well, do what pleases God. What is the whole duty of man? Fear God and keep the Commandments. If "you" love Me, keep My Commandments. Be fruitful and multiply that fruit through the knowledge of God. The knowledge of Truth, increasing, gaining always equity, riches, true riches that God giveth. This world is not my home, I do not want it. I want, I long, I bemoan, wanting that new house in heaven in the presence of the Lord. Simply doing what is right is shining that light for all to see. If I walk circumspect, aware, paying attention, showing a pattern, other will see it, follow it and thus multiply the glory that is Gods. Be ye fruitful and multiply, walk worthy. Ephesians 4:1, " I therefore, the prisoner of the Lord, beseech you that ye walk worthy of the vocation wherewith ye are called, " Colossians 1:10, " That ye might walk worthy of the Lord unto all pleasing, being fruitful in every good work, and increasing in the knowledge of God; " This is the Lords day, it is the seventh day, it is the fourth Commandment day, the last day of the week. This day was sanctified and made holy, this day was given to rest. It is a day made just for man and not man for it. God rested this day from all His labors. This is the Sabbath day and may you strive to enter into it. It is remission and not permission. Seek, Repent and Sin No More. We are the words we speak. What are the treasures your mouth speaks of? May the Grace of God be in you all, magnifying His Holy Name. Grace teaches, do not forget what that teaching is! Blessed be the Name of the Lord Amen and Amen... https://lesliewross.weebly.com/blog/walk-worthy-of-god
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